BHRR's Bean has been very much enjoying his early SS's pressies from Jan, Patricia, Mary and Suzanne! THANK all of you so much for helping to ensure that what time he has left is full of the best experiences possible! 2 new pictures added to his slideshow and also added below.
He is not doing very well and we know that we are nearing the end of our very special time with him. For all those that you can assist, truly, it is the ones like BHRR's Bean that really make you feel the impact of that there is only so much one can do AND if Breeders would breed responsibly (health, longevity, conformation and temperament) AND if Owners would research before purchasing from Breeders AND if Owners would be responsible, the BHRR's Bean's of the world would not ever experience what BHRR's Bean is currently nor that his life will end before it ever really had a chance to begin. AND that is who my tears of frustration, anger, pain, loss are for……BHRR's Bean and the unfairness of that while I can almost guarantee that his Breeder has not spared him a further thought other than how much $$$$ they would see in selling him AND that while his Owners(who btw had given what turned out to be a bounced check owner surrender fee of $50 to BHRR for BHRR's Bean and BHRR's Frank and all 3 of their phone numbers are now disconnected and/or out of service) also most assuredly sleep well at night knowing they no longer have to throw some food here and there to their two dogs that had been tied outside or worry about neighbours complaining about barking dogs or that they were not being properly taken care of; IT is I, ME, MYSELF and Sean and my kids and all those that have fallen in love with the BHRR's Bean's of the world that it will take so much longer for us to be able to close our eyes at night and only see his amazing self, those incredible eyes of his despite being pain filled, the way he now feels more confident and willing to trust to ask for affection(SOMETHING that should have been his given right to have received before) and I am ANGRY!!!! It is I that will be holding him in my arms and washing him in the love of my tears as I cross him over. IT is I that shall make that long hard drive into the Hospital, trying to tell BHRR"s Bean that it is because I love him so much that I must let him go…..IT is I that shall be looking deep into his eyes as the light shall fade from those beautiful orbs and no matter how peaceful we shall try to make it; he will be confused, slightly nervous and then with that final deep sigh, he shall be free from all that pain and hurt that once plagued him in life. IT is I along with my compassionate co-workers who shall help carry him to my car and lay him so tenderly upon the seat so that I can then make that long and hard drive back home and then it is I along with my husband, whose heart and soul is second to none out there in support, heart and soul that shall help me carry BHRR's Bean to his final resting place along with others that have had to make this journey……
FOR those that think that it is so easy to just put an animal to sleep, let me tell you it is not……I never get 'used' to it, I never stop 'feeling' and I agonize and feel sick and weak and shed so many tears that I have tried so hard to choke back with each and every one that we lose at BHRR or even one of our own. SO, yes, I am angry, so angry for the BHRR's Bean's of the world that people do not educate themselves before purchasing a dog and for all those Breeders out there just wanting to make a fast buck and that is it I, along with our fantabulous supporters that work tirelessly trying to give each animal that we can a better life……we are just a bunch of dedicated Volunteers trying to make a difference to animals in need yet; unfortunately, we cannot always give each dog what we know they should have and at the age of only 9 months, BHRR's Bean shall be having his last meal, making his last walk, his last car ride, having his last treat and experiencing his last touches of adoration before he is laid in eternal rest………
I ADORE you BHRR's Bean and I am sorry…..I am so very sorry……so very sorry for all the wrong so many did to you and that I am so very sorry for all that I can not make things right for you. 🙁
BHRR's Bean with Sean – October 29th, 2010 – 2nd picture has a tiny bit of Sir Maestro's muzzle!